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I can tell already now that this will be a sleepness night.

The day was chaotic; started with waiting, anxious feelings, wanting to help - it ended with anxiety, desperation and complete helplessness.
It is impossible to help someone if the help is unwanted or not recognized as such.
Nothing I can do. I have tried. Several times - not only today.
It feels like my message is not beeing heard - but just bounces off the wall.

I cannot watch another help-denying friend go to pieces without going to pieces myself - especially not two of them at the same time.
That means I need to pull back, retreat, withdraw - both mentally and physically. In most cases that also results in lost friendship. I know. Been there. Done that.

All I now can do is wait and hope. Wait to hear from them. Hope they can find help elsewhere, and hope our friendship survives.